So at this point I guess I am allowed back home but still kicked out at the same time ?? Does that even make sense ?? Mom couldn't call me, she had to text me and tell me that once I apologize to her she will allow me to live there UNTIL I can find some where to move to. Like I don't have a problem with her kicking me out at all. My main problem is that she is kicking me AND my 13 month old son. Like he didn't do anything but he is facing the problems I have to deal with.
This is not the first time I was kicked out by my mom. Last time she kicked me out I moved in with my dad for close to a year. Yet this time I don't have my dad to go to. I am just so stressed out right now. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can barely even think straight at this point !! I try to keep things together for my sons sake but its hard to hold it all back when sometimes all I want to do is break down and cry, or run away and never look back (with Jay of course).
My son is the best thing that could have ever happened to me. He is the best little boy a mother could ever ask for. He is getting a temper but he is the love of my life. He keeps me sane in this crazy life I am living !!
Does my mother really think we will be able to make it on our own right now ?? I barely work 10 hours a week right now !! I am hurting bad. I just want what is good for Jayden. I am not even concerned with myself. What little money I have goes straight to him. I will do anything for that lil boy !!
I hope things will all work out, and SOON. Until then I am not texting or calling her until she calls me and makes an effort. I know she is off running and telling everyone that I started it and that it's all my fault but realistically everyone she is talking to is only hearing her side of the story and let me tell you it is far from true !!
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